| "Y'know," he said, "whisky is the kind of thing a man oughtn't to do withoutThat's the trouble with the goddam war; a man cain't get off by hisself, and do the kind of things where he had a good time for hisself and don't hurt no one a damn bit
Croft grunted inaudibly and wiped the mouth of the canteen before he drankRed sifted some dirt through his fingersThe liquor had been sweet and raw; it had rasped his throat and the irritation expanded through his bodyHe rubbed the side of his lumpish red nose and spat angrily"No one's gonna ask you what you want to do," he told Wilson"They just send you out to get your ass blown off For an instant, he saw again the dead bodies in the green draw, the naked look of lacerated flesh"Don't kid yourself," he said, "a man's no more important than a goddam cow
Gallagher was remembering how the legs and arms of the Japanese prisoner had twitched for a second after Croft had shot him"Just like wringing the neck of a fuggin chicken," he muttered white ceramic chanel watch surlilyHis face was drawn, and there were shadows under his eyes"Why not you keep quiet?" he asked"We see same things you do His voice, almost always quiet and polite, had an angry strident note which amazed Gallagher and silenced him
"Let's pass the canteen around," Wilson suggestedHe tilted it upward, and drank the last inch"Guess we got to open another one," he sighed
"We all paid up for this," Croft said"Let's see we drink the same amount
They sat about in a circle, passing the canteen from time to time, and talking in slow indifferent voices which began to blur before the second canteen was finishedThe sun was dropping toward the west, and for the first time that afternoon shadows were beginning to drift from the trees and the black-green ponchos of their pup tentsGoldstein and Ridges and Wyman were sitting about thirty yards away talking in soft voicesOccasionally, a noise of some minor activity -- a truck grinding up the lane that led to the bivouac or the shouts of gucci bag silver some soldiers on a labor detail -- would filter through the coconut groveEvery fifteen minutes a battery about a mile away would fire, and a part of their minds would wait for the sound of the explosion when the shells landedThere was nothing to look at but barbed wire in front of them and the thick brush of the jungle beyond the grove
"Well, back to headquarters company tomorrowlet's drink to that," Wilson said
"I hope we just dig that fuggin road for the rest of the campaign," Gallagher said
Croft fingered his belt dreamilyThe awareness and excitement he had felt after he killed the prisoner had faded on the march to an empty sullen indifference to everything about himAs he drank, the sullenness remained but there were changes taking place in himHis mind had become dulled and blurred, and he would sit motionless for minutes at a time without speaking, intent upon the curious whirling and tumbling that was going on inside his bodyHis mind kept yawing drunkenly like the replica tiffany jewelry underwater shadows that ripple about a pilingHe would think, Janey was a drunken whore, and a dull clod of pain would settle in his chestCrack that whip, he muttered to himself, and his mind eddied over the lazy sensual memories of striding a horse and looking down a hill into a sunlit valley beneathThe alcohol spread through his legs, and he recalled for an instant the entire complex of pleasant sensations he felt when the sun had heated his saddle, and the smell of the hot leather and the wet horse spread about himThe heat re-created the glare of the sunlight in the green draw where the Japanese bodies were lying, and as he thought of the look of surprise that almost came to the prisoner's face the instant before he died, a trickle of laughter began to flow in Croft, and dribbled between his thin tight lips like the frail saliva that bubbles from a sick man's mouth"Goddam," he muttered
Wilson was feeling exceptionally goodThe whisky had filled his body with a rosy sense of complete coco chanel black wallet well-being, and vague lewd sensual images stroked his mindHis groin was filling, becoming tumescent, and his nose quivered with excitement as he remembered the fermy sweating smells of a woman in heat"They ain't anythin' Ah wouldn' give to be lovin' it up with a woman nowTime Ah was workin' as a bellboy at the Hotel Main in town, they was a girl there she was workin' as a singer in some little old band that'd come to town, and she used to keep ringing for me to bring her up some drinksWell, Ah was a young kid then, an' Ah was kind of slow to catch on, but they was one day Ah went up to her room and they she was bare-ass naked, an' jus' waitin' for meAh tell ya, Ah didn't go down and tend to business for all of three hours, and they wan't hardly a goddam thing she wouldn' do for me He sighed, and took a long drink"Her and me jus' loved it up eveh afternoon for all of two months, and she tol' me they wan't a man could equal me He lit a cigarette, and his eyes twinkled behind his louis vuitton miroir handbags spectacl |
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